I haven't posted a journal in a while. Sorry to anyone that had been tracking my journey with my daily journals, but I've just had some much going on outside of the cycle my brain feels fried currently and emotions have been all over the place. What a day. First, a huge Happy 30th Anniversary to my parents. I can only pray that my own relationship lasts and flourishes the way theirs has. Today was also my 40th birthday, though it certainly didn't start out as a celebration. I began the morning at the courthouse filing paperwork on a personal matter—something that has had my anxiety running through the roof since last Thursday. After finishing up, Lauren suggested grabbing a birthday coffee. It was the first coffee I’ve ordered out since August, and while it was incredibly sweet, it was a great idea and gave me a genuine moment of joy....