Sorry this pity party is over, go home.

Today I am struggling. I am getting stronger with my burpees and sit-ups but I am so frustrated with my push-ups. Just being honest here, my stomach/gut whatever you want to call it hinders me. It is very difficult to lift all of that. My right shoulder is screaming out in protest. I have no one to blame but myself and trust me, I am doing that. I am not going to stay in the place of negative self talk and blame but I am striving to move past that. I admit that I have a ways to go with my physical performance however, I can see and feel a difference after only one week. I know, having been down the Black Belt cycle road once, that this is in fact a long road that will seem to take forever but in fact it will go fast. I also know that if I continue to persevere then I will notice daily positive changes in my emotional, mental and yes, physical being. I am going to take this regret for allowing myself to fall back in to some old detrimental habits prior to this BB cycle and turn it in to motivation. I may not be as fast at pushups as the younger (fit) people right now, but what I do have is a positive attitude. I think that is a big step, considering where I have been.
Today is Black Belt class. I am excited because I am meeting with my Mentor, Amy Tucker. I want to work on BB self defense and review bo cho dan amongst other things.