Saturday at the Do Jang

Today was a day of learning for me.  My takeaways from today's classes were:

• to videotape myself to see my progress and areas of need
• never question a senior belt...duh
• never ask about credits during cycle
• even when I think I'm extending my, I'm not enough
• chill out (which I already new, but is a big work in progress)

This black belt journey is tougher then I thought in certain ways. Prior to this experiences I knew that:  I didn't like making mistakes; I'm too hard on myself; and I psych myself out and get 'into my head' too often and too fast. Even though I knew theses things about myself they are blaring loudly now and can't be avoided. I'm on this journey to face them head on and hopefully conquer them. I'm not even close to being there 'yet', but I have plans in place to help myself along the way.  I need to not let other people's ways on doing things influence my stress and anxiety level, which is REALLY hard for me. I'm trying to learn from the other candidates on this journey and learn from their strengths. I'm letting myself ask for help which is huge too. Personal growth is hard....