By Pam Russ on Sunday, 23 February 2014
Category: Candidate Journals

Determined

The first words out of my mouth this morning were "oH... ouch"...ouch is a normal first word but not usually until after I put my feet on the floor. This morning it started as I tried to roll over to step out of bed.  The two classes, black belt and sparring back to back do take a toll on my body.  I wonder if that will ever change. 
During my run/walk today I have cut my time a little bit since the pre-test. Yeah!  To many it may not seem like much, but to me just the fact that I am doing any kind of jog is a real thrill.  It has been eight years now...I was a two pack a day smoker.  The june before my forty first birthday I decided it had been long enough and that not being able to breathe was not the path I cared to travel any longer.  On a Monday I decided to see if I could cut the number I smoked back. I did, I only smoked seven that day.. I thought that compared to two packs seven was like not smoking at all, so on Tuesday I quit. I have never looked back.  I found a program to start running And with hopes of becoming more fit I began with a 15 second run.  I truly thought I was going to require an ambulance.  So, on days like today when I went a little faster, or yesterday when I actually made it through two classes, inside I know just what an accomplishment it really is.   
I struggle in alot of areas.  I have body parts that are not cooperating with what my mind wants to do...but, I have determination and I am determined to get through this cycle.
I have really struggled with remembering the single stick form, Anyo Isa - Payong Palis.. My Mentor went over it with me quite a bit yesterday. Last night and today I have gone over and over the form.  I think I just about have it, or at least have the correct directions, I still need to work on technique.  I have also spent more time on my Wang Ho and Basic Forms today.  My son worked with me on self defenses today too. I like when he practices with me.

I finished my day by spending some time with my baby sister for her birthday...
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