Dear Journal, I definitely can relate to Solomon that states that life is meaningless. I'm also come to the conclusion that the only thing that matters is God. I've been in search of what my true purposes is. sometimes I feel like I've found it and other times I feel like I have no clue. Are we just to exist? China to separate my lives for my children just seems almost impossible but it needs to be done. This is to be my last official journaling. There's so much to say. I need to complete my requirements for my leadership. I'll pay take another week and a half to complete it all. Let's see what this week brings.