Dear Journal, I remember when we had our initial BB meeting to discuss what "the cycle" would entail. After leaving the meeting I thought about how in the world I would get through this 10 weeks of physical and mental training when both my knees, shoulders, back, right hip and elbow hurt: virtigo episodes; I have one vehicle, 3 jobs. Sometimes I would ask myself "why am I doing this again?" BUT, Most of the times I found myself being grateful that I have not quit, that I'm making history and I'm a part of something great. I wondered what message am I sending to my family and friends and what legacy to I want to leave behnd in my journey as a Black Belt. I know what I dont want (quitter). I know I have to go the distance. If not for self, then for the others that will come after me. I know that I am much much strong that when I began this quest, and for that I am also grateful. I had to take a break tonight because I feel my virtigo coming on. I am so glad that I had already finished my requirement for the day. We have 29 more days and counting. I'm going to need to pull deep from within and tap into all resources to make it through this journey.