Candidate Journals

I’m very tired. Again lol. Gonna sleep in tomorrow. I got a good writing session in today. Essays and music later. I wish the music inspo could strike sometime before 12:30 am lol. That’s always the earliest. Anyways, beautiful song coming along which is always nice. I am pretty irritated about my ankle. I walked my mile on a treadmill today, took me forever and still hurt afterwards. Went faster, it hurt. Up the incline, it hurt. Even pushups did today. Like that one isn’t even ABOUT YOU. Anyways, frustrating but I’m trying to make myself rest. Which I now know I’m terrible at lol. But I’m good at writing essays, well and fast, so I’m trying to focus on the academic process I’m making. That’s all, goodnight guys.

Gonna go to the park tmrw morning to train. I’ll be tired again but that’s fine. Got my sticks today, yay. I’m very tired so I’m going to leave it at that and sleep, goodnight guys.

Honestly the digital detox was not as interesting as I’d hoped lol. I was hoping to have some extra creative energy or something, but the day was fairly normal. I suppose that’s a good thing. Anyways, had sparring today. My ankle is rly killing me. It’s very frustrating when that affects my kicks and all. Haven’t been sleeping too well so not looking forward to black belt class in the morning, but it’s whatever. I have to do it so mine as well not dwell on it.

Hello guys. I’m about to do my 24 no tech hours. Gonna start and end at 10pm. I’m a little nervous but also excited for that. Feels like running a social experiment on myself. I think I forgot to journal yesterday. I’ll double up sometime. Oh also, the leg was indeed not nothing. I’ve been training on a sprained ankle. Which is wild. I have a brace to wear tho, with that and modifying requirements as much as I can I think I’ll be fine. I also have sparring tomorrow, that’ll be interesting now. I’ll just do what I can. Hope u guys are doing well.

Today started rough but ended a lot better. I also realized today, after being at the dojo for a few hours, it’s starting to feel like a second home in a way. I think I’m getting more in the rhythm of knowing the curriculum, starting to teach it, (and just being there all the freaking time lol). One thing I put in my applying tkd to life essay was, it’s helped to make me comfortable with discomfort. Having been in all the different more scary classes/situations recently, it keeps feeling lighter to walk in there. Like, I used to be nervous for every color belt class. Now it’s more like, oh finally just a color belt class! It’s wild haha. Anyways I got a solid workout, solid essay session and classes, then watched some family guy and now going to bed. Goodnight guys

Today was fuller than usual for me. I had pet sitting, requirements ofc, a dinner for my brother’s birthday, then helped in a class, took a class, mentored and was mentored. I was there for a while haha. But I got to teach a student one on one in class, and she did great! It’s a great feeling when your student is happy with their progress and with what you taught them. I’m very tired but glad for the stuff done. Now gonna get some essay work done, some lines memorized for theater, and relax. Hope everyone had a good day.

I’m a bit stressed but okay. I get stressed when I have a lot of different things to do and can’t work on all of them lol. Which looks dumb typed out. Like today, I got a great training session in the park this morning, did all my requirements, logged in my book, progress in other hobbies, cleaned, rested and ate well, and I’m all stressed that I didn’t do essay work. Wild how perspective runs with things sometimes. 

ALSO I absolutely s u c k at jump rope, (literally learned koreyo faster). Which I find funny. Of all the difficult black belt things, I get frustrated over jump rope. But, I made some progress with it today, so that’s good too.

I’ve been thinking about how people just train injured. I’m sitting here with a bag of frozen peas on my ankle, and remembering I have instructors that have had entire hips and knees replaced and still shown up the same. They really don’t get enough credit for that. What I’m training with isn’t even remotely close to some of those cases, and it still makes training that much more difficult. Anyways, shoutout to them, and I hope you all are having good days, goodnight!

Another late post arggg, it’s fine. Today was ok, I had two arguments with people and those wore me out. But sparring helped haha. My leg was still killing me after. Not much I can do for that but wait. I’m very tired. It crossed my mind today that I have no idea how I’ll have energy to do this much when school starts. But I guess I’ll figure that out when the time comes.

It was kinda rough to get everything in today. I still did but I’m behind on logging them here. I got through koreyo fully for the first time today. It was slow and messy but I still remembered it and that’s progress. I’m a lot more tired than usual at this hour. Might try to sleep early.

Another ok day. I’ve been a bit stressed out, trying to find ways to help that. Had black belt class today, some much needed kick refining. Went well but my leg was killing me after. It’s healing up fine but gets uncomfortable when I’m doing a lot. I’ve been working on writing music too, hopefully that can be my new skill. That’s all really.

Today was okay. Got my requirements done, it’s late so I’ll log them tomorrow. I had a mentor session, and helped out in a class. Which was nice. I’m very tired, and sore ofc. But that’s okay, I’ll have more time to rest tomorrow. I keep getting worried about certain things on the test, then having to remind myself I still have over 2 months to figure it out lol. 

Today started kind of dull, I ended up doing my requirements a lot later than usual. But the rest was productive, I went to two classes, one to help out and one to take/ to mentee after. I was exhausted but it felt good to knock out some stuff. I want to get better about instantly working on the thing that’s stressing me out. Which is difficult to do but makes me feel better. Hope everyone had a good day <3

Got home very late again. Did my last musical tonight, it went well and I’ll miss that. I’m going to train tomorrow at the park, going to be very tired. But I’ll have the rest of the day to rest and get caught up on logging my requirements. Yayyy  

Another late journal but that’s alright. I had my second to last show tonight, got home late. I did my run outside instead of the gym, it was cloudy and cool out. Got my leg checked out today, and luckily nothing serious. Running might’ve not been the best idea still, it hurt a little after. I have my first Saturday black belt class tomorrow, I feel a little underprepared but I’ll be fine, just need to do it anyway. Anddd I need to update my book and log my requirements on here. Little behind but going strong.

Technically after midnight but whatever. Today wasn’t amazing, I got about half my requirements in this morning, but now have a leg injury. (Which I performed a musical right after getting, stupid I know). I’m going to get it looked at tomorrow, hopefully nothing serious. Really hoping I don’t have to cut back on training. So yeah, not a strong start but hoping I bounce back fast.

Today was okay. I really didn’t want to do my physical requirements today, not sure why. But I did them anyway and that’s good. Was very tired today. I also took my first black belt class! I was nervous and excited, it went fairly well. Looking forward to more weapons training. Now I get some down time with my cat :) . Hope the cycle started well for you all. 

Had some trouble figuring out how to post these, so I’m filling in my first few days. Starting the cycle has been a bit confusing I’ll admit, so much to plan and keep track of. The physical requirements are alright, it gets me out of the house. Today I did an extra mile so I can have a day off sometime. I’m already a little behind on a few things, but I think I’ll get into the rhythm of it and be fine. When something’s challenging, the best way out is through! I hope training for you all is going well.