Took my anger out on some weights at the gym once again yesterday. I was hungry and had no sleep, but that's all I could do. Classes were a blur again. I went to an ice hockey game with my friend. We celebrated but I had to go up to bed because to be honest I was going to drag the party down with my issues. Woke up this morning to go to class, and that has currently been the one good thing that has happened all week. I got in another gym session right after class and getting forms and stuff done.
The black belt cycle became an afterthought this week. But yesterday and today, this was the only thing that could distract me from everything. I needed this to have some sense of direction and purpose.
Today I am going to a Lunar New Year event. I was one of the lucky few to get free tickets to it. Hopefully that also serves as a distraction. Life is challenging right now, and this past week has been hands-down the worst week since I got to Macalester, without much competition, even from the weeks after Thanksgiving at the end of last semester. But that's a story for another time.