So full disclosure: at some point in the cycle I always think "why in the world did I sign up for this?!? Is that extra stripe really that important?" Usually this hits about halfway through the cycle, but this time here we are and we are even at the pretest yet! I know it will pass, but right now it's a matter of pushing through. It will get easier, just riding the struggle bus right now. I also know it has more to do with other factors I won't go into at this time, so hopefully things level out soon.